what if you're already tired?

people always say that when you do have a problem or in pain "don't lose hope", "have faith".. but what if your already tired of doing the same thing? you always do the right thing all the time! you know what right and whats not but c'mon can't we have a break? loose ourselves? drink, party and be merry? who would argue that unwinding was that bad? i don't want to influence you here guys to be violators..what im trying to say is " WILL-THEY-JUDGE-ME-WHEN-IM-ABOUT-TO-GIVE-UP" ..does my preceding actions will not matter anymore? will they remember me for being so weak after this? are you not a human? who feels, got weary, tired and sober? what if.. i lose my patience.. what will people say? but guess what? i really don't care what they'll say.. REALLY!