setting goals..

I don't feel that i'm missing my high school batch mates. Is that offensive? Maybe i was too preoccupied with other things, uh no, i mean a lot of things! 

Every now and then there is always one or two of my batch mates that are getting married, pregnant and some of them still studying. Others have work but you can say that it is only for a specific span of time and they will be transferring company again, very few are those who are really stable at this point. It seems that no one is seriously planning for their futures and just going with the flow.

It occurred to me "Do i have a difference from all of them" . When i was a kid i used to imagine myself above from any other kids of my age. Well, i strongly believe that my confidence before was as high as the stars above for my perception about things and realizations of my limitations are not yet determined.

On the other side, i was starting to feel again that confidence that was once lost. It is all in the mind. What i think i cannot do was all in my mind. Opportunities are everywhere and it is just a matter of confidence and determination.

What i'm trying to do now is to enhance my talent and capabilities and use it to it's fullest and have no regrets in the future that i didn't give this and that a shot. As one wiseman said that you shouldn't be afraid of failing rather than being sorry for not trying.

My plans for my future are of course just mere plans but the will of God shall prevail. I will do my part to maximize every chance i have. Live every single day as if it is the last day. 

Transcendence..

It's always all about yourself. You perceive almost everything with your own presuppositions. "I don't like this" , "I don't feel doing this" and other more. We always want situations to favor our side, our feelings and our pride. Even myself is guilty of this. Why not? It is much more easier that way; much more convenient. But what are the odds? It seems normal if you want more likes on your Facebook status or more retweets. But this narcissism tendency closes your mind to other opinions, comments or culture and even much more about this blog that i'm writing.

One thing I've noticed is when you are in the age that you think you can handle yourself then you are also confident or shall i say more than confident that whatever you decide, conclude or think is absolute. The age where you are fleeting from your adolescence to adulthood and building your own identity and reputation. Everything is more complicated now but as you are starting to create yourself you become more sensitive, more opinionated and egoistic not like when you were a child.

Now, other people who have been to where you are right now starts giving you advice, criticize you and try to tell you what your limits are but this is not just a piece of cake. Because you start to think that you is better than them, that you can have a better way of doing things and nothing is difficult for you to achieve. I understand that side but here's what i'm trying to say here; people are from different walks of life, different orientation and different cultures so you cannot always say that you are right and they are wrong also vice versa. There is always a chance that sometimes they just not tell you the whole picture but bottomline they just wanna make you understand, they wanna help you. One thing I've learned is that even there is always this possibility that we can make a better generation let us not ignore the wisdom that we can get listening to other people especially older people. Sometimes they're wrong but often times they're not. You can always create a better you and there is no harm using some help doing it.

finding my old brain..

while i'm reading my old posts here in my blog makes me feel awkward. hahaha. i was not posting these stuff that people will know that this is me writing this. just raw and random thoughts crossing my mind. i don't care if some grammar Nazis come here and criticize my punctuations,subject-verb whatsoever and other glitches. seriously, back off! well, one reason i'm reviving this blog is that i have this feeling that i'm losing myself. what i mean is that i think i'm corrupted by crappy music, pathetic social medias and mediocrity. i may be harsh with my words but that is reality. how many hours did i spend on Twitter, FB, Youtube and 9gag? whenever i have this great idea or a inspiring write up to make i always end up not doing it because i was exhausted doing a bunch of garbage online. i should courageously stop tweeting and socializing. it is time stimulate my brain and make things happen. 


also this post says a lot about my blogging skills. i'm losing it. not too late. gonna revive it. let this be a reminder to all of us fellow young people to be aware of what you are losing when you spend too much time on unimportant things. when you feed your mind with garbage. i must say that i'm also inspired by Charlie Chaplin for being not that sociable yet used his talent and principles to have his message heard in the most effective way. Keeping a low-profile and was not infiltrated by Hollywood. always find time to take a break from all of the demands of this world and start redeeming yourself. for only a few understand the importance of this and emerge as one of the rare and bright minds of this planet.