setting goals..

I don't feel that i'm missing my high school batch mates. Is that offensive? Maybe i was too preoccupied with other things, uh no, i mean a lot of things! 

Every now and then there is always one or two of my batch mates that are getting married, pregnant and some of them still studying. Others have work but you can say that it is only for a specific span of time and they will be transferring company again, very few are those who are really stable at this point. It seems that no one is seriously planning for their futures and just going with the flow.

It occurred to me "Do i have a difference from all of them" . When i was a kid i used to imagine myself above from any other kids of my age. Well, i strongly believe that my confidence before was as high as the stars above for my perception about things and realizations of my limitations are not yet determined.

On the other side, i was starting to feel again that confidence that was once lost. It is all in the mind. What i think i cannot do was all in my mind. Opportunities are everywhere and it is just a matter of confidence and determination.

What i'm trying to do now is to enhance my talent and capabilities and use it to it's fullest and have no regrets in the future that i didn't give this and that a shot. As one wiseman said that you shouldn't be afraid of failing rather than being sorry for not trying.

My plans for my future are of course just mere plans but the will of God shall prevail. I will do my part to maximize every chance i have. Live every single day as if it is the last day. 

Transcendence..

It's always all about yourself. You perceive almost everything with your own presuppositions. "I don't like this" , "I don't feel doing this" and other more. We always want situations to favor our side, our feelings and our pride. Even myself is guilty of this. Why not? It is much more easier that way; much more convenient. But what are the odds? It seems normal if you want more likes on your Facebook status or more retweets. But this narcissism tendency closes your mind to other opinions, comments or culture and even much more about this blog that i'm writing.

One thing I've noticed is when you are in the age that you think you can handle yourself then you are also confident or shall i say more than confident that whatever you decide, conclude or think is absolute. The age where you are fleeting from your adolescence to adulthood and building your own identity and reputation. Everything is more complicated now but as you are starting to create yourself you become more sensitive, more opinionated and egoistic not like when you were a child.

Now, other people who have been to where you are right now starts giving you advice, criticize you and try to tell you what your limits are but this is not just a piece of cake. Because you start to think that you is better than them, that you can have a better way of doing things and nothing is difficult for you to achieve. I understand that side but here's what i'm trying to say here; people are from different walks of life, different orientation and different cultures so you cannot always say that you are right and they are wrong also vice versa. There is always a chance that sometimes they just not tell you the whole picture but bottomline they just wanna make you understand, they wanna help you. One thing I've learned is that even there is always this possibility that we can make a better generation let us not ignore the wisdom that we can get listening to other people especially older people. Sometimes they're wrong but often times they're not. You can always create a better you and there is no harm using some help doing it.

finding my old brain..

while i'm reading my old posts here in my blog makes me feel awkward. hahaha. i was not posting these stuff that people will know that this is me writing this. just raw and random thoughts crossing my mind. i don't care if some grammar Nazis come here and criticize my punctuations,subject-verb whatsoever and other glitches. seriously, back off! well, one reason i'm reviving this blog is that i have this feeling that i'm losing myself. what i mean is that i think i'm corrupted by crappy music, pathetic social medias and mediocrity. i may be harsh with my words but that is reality. how many hours did i spend on Twitter, FB, Youtube and 9gag? whenever i have this great idea or a inspiring write up to make i always end up not doing it because i was exhausted doing a bunch of garbage online. i should courageously stop tweeting and socializing. it is time stimulate my brain and make things happen. 


also this post says a lot about my blogging skills. i'm losing it. not too late. gonna revive it. let this be a reminder to all of us fellow young people to be aware of what you are losing when you spend too much time on unimportant things. when you feed your mind with garbage. i must say that i'm also inspired by Charlie Chaplin for being not that sociable yet used his talent and principles to have his message heard in the most effective way. Keeping a low-profile and was not infiltrated by Hollywood. always find time to take a break from all of the demands of this world and start redeeming yourself. for only a few understand the importance of this and emerge as one of the rare and bright minds of this planet.

Where's the optimism? SONA 2011

Why is it that people are not tired of ranting and complaining whenever they can? Aren't you tired of yourself blaming a single person for all of these? Noynoy with all due fairness is just a year old as a president. Then you expect that he will solve all those on your wishlist? C'mon get real! I'm not ignorant of all the extrajudicial killing. poverty,all price hike, low salary, jobless people, budget cuts and the list goes on but don't the president deserve at least a benefit of the doubt? From what i see here, Noynoy actually managed to open some issues, anomalies and corruption in different agencies. He really stick to his "Tuwid na daan" campaign he has which is for me a impressive first year. I believe that this tactic of fighting corruption is a good move to dig a foundation for his further plans of making our country a better land. From getrealphilippines.com this was quoted "How does one go from fighting the wang wang to highlighting “results” to do with reducing hunger?" because according to that article Noynoy quoted his wang-wang speech then followed by a statistics about self-rated hunger. Don't you understand that when this abuse of authority (wang-wang) is eliminated then all good outcome follows? I'm not even a Aquino loyalist but i think Noynoy here is somehow judged inappropriately. I agree that his SONA has left us clueless about all of his plans for our country but on the other side a president that is actively fighting for corruption and authority abuse is a president that i can trust. Let's not put it all on Noynoy's shoulders. Fellow Filipinos we also have some work to do!

nothing to look forward..

isn't it true that if you are not looking forward to anything and nothing excites you it just create a damn lazy sluggard monster in you? well, im experiencing some of this lately and it is damaging.. i missed work, it costs me a lot of money.. i find food a therapeutic way to temporarily lessen my loneliness away.. i don't like being an adult, i don't like this responsibilities, i should have a life you know? i don't like taking care of my own bills. but on the other side i surely don't want to live with my dad again. cruel as it seems but i cannot write or describe the exact feeling when we we're with him and it is so excruciating that i don't want to remember it anymore. i always look at myself as a strong, aggressive and will-driven person as if im invincible in my own perception. but today im seeing myself falling into tiny bits, impossible to restore, painful to rebuild. my confidence is degenerating, i often feel empty and got nothing to do but to stare at these laptop. *sigh* it is just so boring..

faith, religion, Bible.. DEBATE part 1..

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  this video was posted by PERSON 2 in his Facebook account.. and PERSON 1 challenged him.. btw, this is an friendly debate.. :)
  
  
  
  
  PERSON 1:  i want a debate here..:) this was not a secret.. this is something that TRUE Christians are trying to say over and over again.. that there is no other way in salvation other than faith in Christ.. i repeat in Christ alone..
  

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   PERSON 2: the secret that was revealed was about the one who will preach another gospel. a stupid shmuck that would say all religions pray to one god, and every religion is acceptable to God.
  

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  PERSON 1:  that was not a secret.. it is written in the book of Revelation.. it is only a secret to those who doesn't read the Book of Life..
  

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  please do not confuse the bible with th book of life.. the bible is our how-to-live manual with good and bad examples and the book of life is like a log-book of people who are not going to be thrown to hell--so it is not possible for us to read it because it is with God. the secret is who is that anti-christ.
  
  Btw, I'd like to share this with you... do you know that religion is one of the leading causes of bloodshed in the world?

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  PERSON 1:  Life in it's true meaning is the Bible.. Christ said " I am the Way the Truth and the Life" and He also said that "I and the Word are one" so there..
  religion..hmm.. interesting.. so what is it? what RELIGION?
  

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  what? christ isn't the bible... do you know that the number of books that are present nowadays are finalized long after the apostles died? ever heard of the book of eli, the revelation of peter and the acts of paul? they were excluded in t...he bible.. of course, it is the word of god, but i think it is no longer complete, because it is no longer in it's original aramaic or hebrew language(which has more words than the english language), some books like the dead sea scrolls have torn areas, and some important books may not have been found.
  
  life... believe me, there are more people killed in the bible than those who where raised to life. not an atheist but, just looking at the bible at a technical perspective. with all of these obstacles, I believe God raises a person who would have the lost knowledge to teach us whenever it is his will to do so.
  
  religion? I think every major religion including christianity has blood in it's hands... ever heard of the crusade? the jihad

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  PERSON 1: i understand people like you.. skeptical.. you won't believe if you don't have it.. well, that's faith.. :) about God being the word.. try to read the book of John.. you can't put God in the box of our mind.. you can't perceive Him the way a human mind can think.. that's why faith is the one that can save NOT RELIGION.. how can you perceive the mind of the ONE who made us? just think of the logic there.. Christians are persecuted here on earth a perfect example that were not of this world.. and it is stated in the bible too.. dude, faith is all that matters in afterlife.. not LEGALITY..

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  the problem with persecution is that, after the the romans stopped persecuting the christians, the christians persecuted other people..
  
  Btw, i'm not a skeptic, and I do believe in God. but how I believe it is not like other people. I don't just roll over when I'm told to.
  
  What I'm trying to do is differentiate the bible to the book of life. because you seem confused with the two.
  
  The like I said bible can be edited, translated, and can be interpreted in countless ways. but the book of life cannot because it is in God's possession.
  
  look, faith without knowlege is meaningless... ..how about those who have faith in satan? o how about those who staunchly believe that killing a bunch of christians will get you into heaven? that is the very reason why people kill for religion.. christians and muslims killed each other before because they have faith that God is pleased if they do so. not knowing that it is for imperialistic reasons..
  
  Like moses, elijah, jesus and the other prophets god raises People with knowledge to teach and tell us his will. because people have trouble in reading and interpreting his words..It's either they find it too inconvienient or they're mystics..
  
  and btw, If you really believe in the bible you should understand that faith doesn't matter in the after life.. why? do you need faith believe in God when you see him in front of you? 

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  again my premise was Life in it's essence is the Bible.. can you give me an example of Life that was not of the Word? it's true faith withour knowledge is meaningless but faith BASED on knowledge and on what you can only understand is not faith.. it is insecurity.. and on my statement that faith is all that matters in the afterlife.. what i mean was you will be judged by your faith not by what you perceived or think that is right.. faith in a stone is faith in vain.. that's why i pointed on my first statement that Christ is the way to salvation "no one comes to the Father except through Him" so those people who believe in their other gods is faith in vain.. i.e. you can have faith that there is no gravity..well, will that change the truth? still gravity do exist whether you believe in it or not.. so how about those who have faith that there is no gravity? they are believing in vain.. so there is the logic.. :)

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  on what grounds can you say faith based on knowledge is insecurity? I had given some proofs that faith without knowledge is meaningless.. I will give you a good reason why it is not just insecurity... How the hell are you going to have faith to a God if you don't know him(knowledge). people were first given knowledge before the had faith.
  
  And how can you be judge according to you faith? those who joined the crusades had strong faith.. the proof is they traveled to a distant land to kill the muslims.. and the muslims did the same.. so faith is not the means on how you will be judged.
  
  It is by actions.. as it is written in the letter of john.. "faith w/o action is dead".
  
  salvation comes like this.. You are indoctrinated(knowledge), you believe it(faith), and how you live your life(actions)..
  
  again my argument is about faith alone... because faith without knowldge has cathastropic effects.. for with faith w/o knowledge, people can be manipulated by malignant fiars into abominable acts like so-called "holy wars"... there is nothing holy about a war fought for imperialism and pride.

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  PERSON 2:  about the word.. my example is neiserria gonorrhea.. I don't think that is of the word..hehe
  

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  here let me correct my previous statement.. faith SOLELY BASED in knowledge is insecurity.. how can you say that you faith is what you posses when you're being legalistic.. and that's in the book of James "faith without deeds is dead" by you dont read the whole text for it is also said that "for it is by FAITH you have been saved through grace and NOT BY YOUR WORKS so that no one can boast".. again.. i said faith in Christ not faith in someone else.. you're missing the point.. have you read the parable of the talents? well, thats an example of faith solely based in knowledge is insecurity..

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  PERSON 2: so james and john have a disagreement.. which makes my earlier claim that there is a problem with the bible. it seems that you miss to answer my question about how are you going to have faith if you have no idea that a God exist? it is a simple question.. knowledge is comes first before faith. by understanding christ's teachings w/c is a form of KNOWLEDGE you are able to have faith in him and then worship God.
  
  I don't really know what legalistic mean.. but it is not bad to worship God and use your brain at the same time.. the parable of talents tells us that God comissions us to act for his cause (e.g. spread the word) and not to sit around and just have faith.
  
  To have faith doesn't mean to just believe in anything you are told.. there is a thing called blind faith.. and mine is not like that. My faith can be expressed as.. I believe in God though i don't see him... but i feel the holy spirit(idk if you'll even believe) and no matter what others tell me I'll stick to his fundamental which is the truth.

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  dude, you're so confused.. what im saying is that you must read the Bible in context not in random verses.. you yourself said that it is frequently misunderstood.. im not arguing about having knowledge in faith.. that is essential.. im stating here that faith SOLELY based..dude the word is SOLELY! is insecurity.. the point that im stating in the parable of the talents is that the 3rd servant in his knowledge doesn't seem enough for him to grow... but the 1st and 2nd servant take the risk even though they don't have an assurance that they will succeed.. believeing in something that they are not sure of.. keyword: SOLELY.. you must get that one..

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  the problems that I'm talking about the bible are:
  1. Some books were that were found are really damaged and some of the writings are erased.(e.g. dead sea scrolls)
  2.The translation to english from aramaic/hebrew(which have a lot more words than the english language)
  3. the reliability of the scholars(ever wonder why there is a large gap between cain killing able and cain having his own family)
  4. the time the books were brought together.. (it was about a century after the apostles died.
  5. events like the council of nycea; where there is a direct intervention of the emperor, constantine on the issue of the state of being of jesus

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  taking a risk is an action.. believe me..ahaha.. why did they act? because they knew(w/c is knowledge again) that their master will kick their ass if they do not act..
  again you miss the point.. how is having faith solely in knowledge? maybe you're talking about the atheist.. who have faith in his own knowledge..
  
  for it to be clearer.. how is faith solely in knowledge?

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  PERSON 1:  in this case naman.. bible was written and the people who wrote that are Holy Spirit inspired.. and if you really follow the bible you'll see that the history and what's written on it are not in conflicts.. the prophecies in the old testament were all fulfilled iin the new testament.. and if you read the Bible.. everything that is happening today.. the famine, disasters, Verichip, and other more we're alll written in it.. i strongly recommend that you must FIRST read the entire Bible befoore questioning it.. :)
  

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  PERSON 1:  good works is the fruit of your faith not that good works will earn you faith.. SOLELY=PURELY.. there is a big difference between believing and faith.. i tell you.. no one is save by believing and solely knowledge.. you'll be saved by your faith..
  

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  PERSON 2: I have read it believe me... I'm not talking about those who written it.. i'm talking about those who compiled it. and those who deided what to inlclude in the bible,, it happen in a time where power is starting to corrupt the church.. and the people who were full of faith and were not using their brains fell.. are you not puzzled why there are so many sects?
  
  I never said that it is fake.. I only said that There is a problem with it.. it is a matter of looking at history and it doesn't require alot of knowldge and faith to see it.
  
  ok about faith... it still doesn't answer the question on how possible is it for faith to be judge because a lot of pople killed each other because of it.. faith can be right or wrong so why woul god base his judgement on something that is really unconsistent?
  
  If faith is different from believe then, why are the followers of christ called believers and no faithers..hahaha. 

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   it is just the same... unless you are talking about blind faith.. a faith SOLELY based on mystism and fanatism. btw, I recommend that You read the history of the bible... for I had long ago finished reading it so I started reading how it was compiled..
  

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  PERSON 1: haha.. that's a good one.. as i've told you.. :) you must first read the entire Bible.. and i can bet that you haven't read the whole of it.. im sure of that.. because all this premises that ive been telling you are from it..faith in Christ is not inconsistent.. for He doesn't said that you must believe to all of the theories.. Bible and Christ are the one you must truly have faith with.. not the theories that people are trying to make... for RELATIONSHIP in God is important not the religion..
  
  as for believing and faith... even the demons believe in God.. they have knowledge about His greatness.. but they are all bound to hell.. then what is your difference if you just believe and don't have faith?

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  PERSON 2: it is not because what i'm saying is different than your's I was not able to read the whole bible.. i even read the foot notes..
  
  the difference is that we are not (yet) condemned by God. And the difference is that they fought(which is an action) against God. it is not the question of faith, it is the question of actions. it is stated also in letter of john that demons also have faith. another example of betrayal is judas.. he had faith...
  
  and btw, I never stated any theories.. all I said were historical facts,
  that shows the implication of faith alone. over the time I was talking about the bloodshed that was because of mislead faith, and you fail to answer them in anyway.
  
  i'll give you a strong proof that faith is really primarily based on knowledge.
  you will not be able to have faith if you are not indoctrinated/preached(w/c is knowledge) and you are taught with the gospel(w/c is knowledge).
  abraham wouldn't have that much faith in God if he didn't know God exist.
  
  what the bible is against is faith based on earthly knowledge.
  
  a more reliable proof that faith alone is useless.. Remember the Rich young man that approached jesus? he had faith but he failed because he was not able to do what jesus asked him to do.. which is an action.
  faith is proved through actions..
  
  here's an indistputable proof that religion is important.. acts 20:28 try it.. it talks about a church that was bought by christ's blood. if religion is not important, why would christ die for that church? and god wouldn't send christ, choose moses, or wouldn't require people to build churches if religion was not necessary.
  
  I really read the bible, not like those who read it as a fiction book, i read it and studied it. one example is that there is no english translation for the word selah that was repeated a lot of times in psalms. and the term "fool" has a different meaning in the bible. fool means someone who is stupid. but in the bible it means, a person who is morally deficient. perhaps you just read it and you did not really understand it..haha
  
  christ and God are not inconsistent, but people are. especially those scholars and authorities who compiled the bible, why? they had to remove and add books in the bible.

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  PERSON 1: if you're really reading my replies...ive been answering you repititively... the thing is you're only refusing to accept my premises.. i didn't said that you've stated theories.. ive said that people make theories and called it religion.. that's why there are so many sectors.. the one that you've stated as a strong proof is a lame one.. 1st gospel is not a knowledge it's an action.. have you heard of pre destination.. many would here the gospel but won't accept it.. maybe you've read the history of the bible and believed in it skeptically.. and doesn't read the bible itself.. people in the old testament is different from the people of the new testament for Christ haven't come yet in those times.. the way of communicating in God is different.. i thought you've read the Whole of it? and what made you say that Judas is a demon? one more thing.. how sure are you that demons have faith? :)

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  PERSON 2: I'd just add a correction... the verses that I used were from james and not from john. btw, it is stated in james 2;20-26 that abraham is justified through his actions... and you are a fool if you think you are justified though faith alone.
  
  if you accept this verse then your argument will collapse and if you don't my first claim about the problem with the bible is affirmated:)

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  PERSON 1:  justified not based.. i thought you understand.. as ive told you it is a proof of faith.. as found in galatians.. were talking about salvation.. it is by faith..have you read Ephesian 2:8-9 read between the lines my friend.. you're too literal.. :) proof needs justification.. you're not bulding anything here in your argument.. shooting blindly.. understand before having your next reply..
  

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  PERSON 2: first my claim about faith is not lame.. because you neglected to discredit my claim that it is not possible for you to have faith if you are not preached/taught.. and about gospel.. okay you are right that it is not just knowledge but also...See More

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  PERSON 2:  justified and so will be saved... that's the point.. and how are you going to prove your faith without actions?
  

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  PERSON 1:  satan was once an angel but LOST his faith..read Isaiah.. he wants to be greater than God.. the don't have faith after all.. this happened before the new testament.. as ive told you.. it is different way back then.. im not against that you need knowledge.. ive told you that faith based in SOLELY knowledge is not faith.. church pertains to the body of Christ not religion..
  

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   ive already explained that one.. hmp! faith,actions and knowledge.. read it..